Life, Pursuit and Laziness

Sometimes standing around doing nothing will affect some of the future decisions that we make. Does this make sense to you?

Well, it is true, ask anyone who has dealt themselves a raw hand on the likes of laziness.

We pursue our goals and dreams and we tell ourselves that they are within arms reach. We go through those beginning years doing everything we can to get to the finish line, but then one or two things happen that we deem crucial turning points and that is when dreams, goals, and aspirations go down the drain. There will always be someone who will tell you that what you have gone through is nothing compared to their life, but at the end of the day what is dramatic and hectic to one will still be that way regardless of what someone else says. This is still no excuse, no matter who it is to allow your life and the things that you had once pursued in life disappear into non existence.

Someone may look at this article and say that I am talking out the side of my "you know what," but that is far from the case. We all need to take into consideration that there are people who have lived the lives that they refer to. I am one of those people. Lets get personal for a minute.

Eight years ago, I was one of the most dedicated people, heading towards the goals that I had in mind to achieve. I was on top of "my game," so to speak and then it all went down the drain when my brother died in a car accident. My brother, Chukes whom we called CJ died in a car accident on April 16, 2000. This occurred during my spring break, senior year of high school. I shared my life with him, especially after we had been neglected by our mother when I was in the sixth grade. We took initiative and worked together to take care of three little girls, the oldest being 5 and the youngest not even close to being a year old. We took turns going to school until one day our father took me away from him, I felt as though I neglected him. After that day I was motivated and when he died at the age of 24, I gave up.

Graduation, prom, my luncheon meant nothing to me after that. My parents, my daddy and stepmom had to talk me into attending these functions because they knew CJ would want me to. All I could think about was him being there seeing me off to prom and meeting me at the door after graduation as we'd planned. So, when I went away to college that summer I found myself not caring and pregnant. I had my son the following year. I decided to drop out of college, and take care of him. His father and I had another baby the following year and by then I felt that my life was hopeless, and all I would do from then on out is take care of my children, living check to check.

In 2007, I met quite a few people who encouraged me to go back to school, and introduced me to resources that would allow me to focus on school and basically "handle my business." Now, here it is with less than two week left of 2008, and I am a sophomore in college, working two jobs, taking care of two beautiful children,getting good grades, and happy.

I got off of my lazy behind, and although some may say that I had a reason for my laziness, it was still that non-the-less. I could have stayed in school and made it work eight years ago, but I took the other road, and now I can truly say that I know how it feels on both ends.

So, although I don't know what situations everyone else has gone through, i do know that anything is possible. I lived through losing a piece of me, to gaining two big parts back. I went from thinking my life was over because I was a mother, to knowing that even then I can still be successful. I know that this is something that anyone can say if they put their mind to living and pursuing life. I will be your motivator, I will be your backbone, I will be your support system.

Mysti